Yaari Dosti...

There is a thin line between being moody and egoistic. I wonder what makes people change for no reason as such. I mean I know, one can’t be in constant touch with our friends and at times a simple text reconnects the bond. But being around and still being unavailable kind of hurts, doesn’t it?

It’s like you have shared so many things from tiffin to gossip to girl-talk, you have complained, teased, cried, laughed and made promises to be friends forever, you are able to gauge each other’s moods, you have exchanged looks, the meaning of which only you know, you have understood each other’s silences, kept code names and laughed your hearts out; you have come to the conclusion that, that phase of life, that place, that time of life, that experience  would not have been the same without the presence of those people.

Once I reach this peak for any person, I start depending on the person and that’s where I make a mistake. Few days after the ‘it would not have been the same’ phase, when these people behave indifferently, it hurts. You try finding out and after few tries, you feel all is back to normal. But the story repeats, and then you feel – why should I be the first to talk, why can’t he/she do it. 

You dismiss the feeling as being moody or having a lot on the plate, but the feeling keeps coming back until you become egoistic. Maybe you have assumed too much, maybe you have read too much between the lines, maybe it’s nothing at all or maybe it’s time to let go, for the better.

It’s better to let go before it gets bitter, it’s better that one text once in a while makes you smile instead of forceful conversations. This holds true not only for ‘ishq-wala’ love but also friendship.

In my case, I will try once again before letting it go because relation is more important than ego, but I will let go if need be because ego is better than a forced relation. 

        J Stay Tuned In To Life J